Monday, December 8, 2014

Dental surgery results

I have stitches in my gums after more than 2 hours in the dentist's chair. Rooting around where my wisdom teeth were extracted long ago.

I have long felt that was the day, at age 19, when my health started going downhill. I was in bed for a month.

I had previously gone on long bike rides, marched with a tuba and done back-to-back aerobics records. Sometimes all in 1day. After the wisdom tooth extraction (all 4), When I exerted myself too much, I felt "green," like I was hungover (I wasn't) and needed to barf.


Dr cut open 2 of the sites today and found sclerotic bone (essentially dead bone) and big holes in my jawbone where it didn't heal post-surgery. When he saw those holes, and how huge they were, he said "see? You're not crazy!" I've never had a health professional say that to me before...

I've essentially had a slow-drip bacteria feed from the inside of my gums into my sinuses and beyond all this time.

As I lay there trying not to be fully present, I thought back on the time after the original surgery and connected the dots. Why I now think my body didn't heal from the 1st surgery: the dentist told me with great emphasis that I absolutely must finish my course of antibiotics so I wouldn't get infections. I had an allergic reaction to the antibiotics (head-to-toe burning rash), but I kept taking them, for fear of infection. So I stayed in state of severe allergic reaction for 2 weeks. Pretty sure that left my body no resources with which to heal my jawbone.

How ironic. By suffering through severe allergy in order to avoid infection I ended up with... A long-term infection.

I still have to get the 2 sites on my right side done. And I will. But I'm not scheduling it right this second... I barely slept at all last night, dreading this day. That's how convinced I an that the wisdom tooth extraction was the beginning of my serious health problems.

So convinced I will subject myself to something I fear dread and loathe (dental surgery!), and pay for it out of pocket! (Procedure is neither mainstream nor covered by insurance).

Had breakfast and a snack before surgery, but No more food til tomorrow. Can't risk opening up surgery sites. I'm not screwing this up twice!!!

When I got home our dog came up to me on the sofa and sniffed my mouth - no kisses, just sniffing. Then curled up on my feet to comfort me. She's so smart. She and joe watching over me in the "recovery room" (our living room).

Carla
The Singing Patient
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She-hulk!

Days 73, 74: ran out of stevia-sweetened dark chocolate. Oh, the cravings!

Visited friends in the Bronx Saturday. Got delicious takeout gluten-free (no cheese) pizza. Our friend suggested twice that we all go out for frozen yogurt. I changed the topic... And dodged the social dessert trap!

And we ended up having a great time playing with the kids (5-yr old twin boys- they did my hair!), then (after bedtime), the 2 guys doing Kung fu and 2 gals talking about teaching.

Sunday was a day at home so no major challenges, except my lack of chocolate on hand and my rising anxiety about my oral surgery Monday afternoon... It'll all be over in 14-15 hours.
Oh and started exercise Saturday. Just strength training. That usually goes well with me- I put on muscle pretty easily. She-hulk! Paint me green.

Carla
The Singing Patient
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Saturday, December 6, 2014

Emotional eating

Day 72: got upset about something. Didn't have anyone to talk to, too gross out for a walk... So I overate.

Emotional eating. Haven't done that in a long time.

Small consolation- everything I indulged in was healthy. Plant-based protein shakes, clean protein bars (non gmo, no soy etc). I just had more than I should've. I wanted a big bag of chocolate!!!

In the future I need to have some strategies lined up- a list of friends to call (no one person is always available), and some kind of indoor way to blow off steam since it's gonna be gross outside the majority of the time for the next 4-5 months.

I'm not toxic- I didn't eat sugar or foods I'm allergic to. So... There's that anyway. And today, after my double portions of high-fiber plant protein, I almost clogged the toilet!

Carla
The Singing Patient
http://thesingingpatient.com/  

Friday, December 5, 2014

Refreshed and focused

Day 71: up early- yet feeling refreshed! A productive day, feeling focused.

Got a massage. Awkwardly, ran into the guy I used to make appointments with. I think I will switch back to him. New guy talks too much. Of course the other guy has such a thick accent that I can barely understand him.

Didn't weigh myself. Fought major chocolate cravings late in the evening. Probably due to end-of-long-day fatigue. But I won!

Having weird tmj symptoms for no discernible reason. Just my jaw making noises. No pain, no headaches. Odd.

Pretty sure I will be crashing at a reasonable hour tonight- who is this person?

Carla
The Singing Patient
http://thesingingpatient.com/  

Thursday, December 4, 2014

Perfect day on the plan

Day 70: as inexplicably as I gained 3 pounds, I dropped 2.5. O scale, thou art a mystery wrapped in a conundrum.

Think I wore myself out yesterday. Got close to nothing done today.
However I had a nice lunch with my visiting pal and fellow musician Amy Engelhardt and she is on my couch as I type and we all get ready for "sleepy sleep" (as we explain it to our dog).

Perfect day on the plan.
Tomorrow I get a massage
Yesterday and today I needed no pain meds.

I have a song idea for the vlog but just no get up and go today to work on it. I do believe I borrowed today's energy yesterday.

Was totally worth it. Taped an interesting songwriter internet show (comes out next week) and did a live streaming concert with the fun and funny Todd Chappelle, both in Pennsylvania, involving lots of driving in gross weather in the dark. So I doubled up on caffeine - and today I pay.

That's ok. As I heal, I have days where I feel normal - as in, like a normal person! Waking up rested, not needing caffeine, feeling focused. Not lots of them, but enough to know I'm on a good path.
And so, I keep going!

Carla
The Singing Patient
http://thesingingpatient.com/